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Have you ever had a mask on, like during Halloween or something, and people couldn’t see your face and see who you really are? Or, have you ever had one of those kinds of masks where everything is ok on the outside and you don’t want anyone to notice the stuff that is going on the inside like when you go to school or work and you’re just another smiling face in the crowd. I have worn that mask most of my life, where I would be on edge, trying to make everyone happy, telling them what they want to hear. I would do this with everyone from girls I dated to my parents and, a lot of the time God.

I’ve been here at Crossfire Masters Commission for a while now and starting to finally know who I am in Christ. I am a child of God, but more than that, I want to be a man of God. Not long ago, I found out that, like I said, I was wearing a mask. So I was given a special assignment I was given a Donald Trump mask to wear for about ten hours so I could look in the mirror and see my “mask” so to speak, and that I wasn’t being myself but somebody else.

All I could think about for the beginning of the day was, “I can’t wait to get this mask off,” because when we started working it got sweaty in that thing really really fast, it was going down my face, down my shirt, just everywhere, it was nasty. Then God really started talking to me in this mask about how I should want my spiritual mask off and about how the real me should be seen not “Donald Trump”.

Not only that though, when I was working the eye holes in the mask were going everywhere. I would have to move my mask to see straight. Now that I’ve said that, let me tell you that I’ve really missed home and want to be home in the worst way. The mask moving around really showed me that I need to stay focused on here and being here in Oregon, it’s alright to miss my family and friends but I need to focus on what God is doing here in my life. Changing me, using me, the real me not some fake, ‘hi how ya doin’ person, but a real person, the man of God that I know that I am called to be.

I just want to encourage you, that if you are wearing a mask, or many masks, that God loves, and that he has a calling and a purpose for you. You may not feel worthy, or like you can do anything incredible for God. But God made you for a specific purpose, forget about pleasing other people and focus on doing what God has for you to do.

-Josh DeLauder