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Recently I’ve been reading the book “Crazy Love” by Francis Chan. Here is an excerpt from Chapter 1 that is changing my life right now:

“God is all-knowing. Isn’t this an intimidating thought? Each of us, to some degree, fools our friends and family about who we really are. But it is impossible to do that with God. He knows each of us deeply and specifically. He knows our thoughts before we think them, our actions before we commit them, whether we are lying down or sitting or walking around. He knows who we are and what we are about. We can not escape Him, not even if we want to. When I grow weary of trying to be faithful to Him and want a break, it doesn’t come as a surprise to God.
For David, God’s knowledge led him to worship. He viewed it as wonderful and meaningful. He wrote in Psalm 139 that even in the darkness he couldn’t hide from God; that while he was in his mother’s womb, God was there.
Hebrews 4:13 says, “Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to who we must give account.” It is sobering to realize that this is the same God who is holy and eternal, the Maker of the billions of galaxies and thousands of tree species in the rainforest. This is the God who takes the time to know all the little details about each of us. He does not have to know us so well, but He chooses to.”

GOD CHOOSES US! This seems like such a simple truth, but for me, it is easy to lose sight of it. I'm 28 and single. I started serving the Lord whole-heartedly when I was 19 and shortly afterwards God told me not to date anyone because He wanted me to go to Masters Commission. Since then, I have been single and waiting. Waiting for someone to choose me. Waiting for God’s best. Sometimes the waiting is patient, knowing that God is faithful and trusting that He has a plan, even if I don’t see it. Sometimes the waiting is painful and it feels as if I will spend forever waiting for someone to want to know me. In those times God reminds me that He chooses me. Not just that He chose to die for my sins, or that He chose to create me in the first place; but that He (actively) chooses to pursue me. He chooses to know me…on purpose, desiring for me to choose Him in return.

It’s hard to feel lonely knowing that an all-knowing God, who sees my actions, my thoughts and my intentions, still chooses to know and love me. It is truly humbling.