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9 years. To some of you 9 years seems like an eternity. To others, 9 years is a small slice of time in comparison to the rest of your life. Well, on this day 9 years ago I realized that Jesus died on the cross to pay the penalty for my sins so that I could live my life in relationship with Him. 9 years ago today…I stopped living for myself…my agenda…my plans…my will, and I started to learn how to find His.

I’ve just been reflecting on my life and what the last 9 years have brought me, and what they have taken from me. It is so humbling to remember who I was before I surrendered my life to God. I was this hurt, lonely, broken, purposeless girl; and I seriously doubted that I would ever be able to enjoy life. Then God interrupted my life. He interrupted my loneliness and showed me of His great love for me. He interrupted my worries and fears to teach me trust. He interrupted my addictions and taught me about the freedom that can only be found in Jesus. But beyond all this, He gave me purpose. Not just so I could be a “Christian” but so that with this life that God gave me, I could serve Him. Not as a job, or out of duty or obligation; but out of love for Jesus, who loves more that I can even understand.

I can’t fathom who I would be if August 9, 2000 had never happened. And looking back at it all…the high points and the lowest of lows…I can’t even believe how God has done all the things I see in myself. I am truly proof of the grace, mercy, beauty and hope that Jesus can bring to a heart that is longing and willing to surrender everything to Him. Thank you Jesus, for everything…