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Life is crazy. You know? Well... here is my latest story..

As a Masters Commission, we had a special meeting... [it has a special name but I can't spell it, so ..sorry..] ... it was a very intense meeting. We have had these a few more times and God always shows up in a strong way and does crazy stuff. Well for a month or possibly even more before this meeting, I had been struggling spiritually and physically and I just kept pushing God away. I have always struggled with accepting God's grace and forgivness and even when I repent of stuff I hold it against myself for a long time after. So that is why I kept pushing God away.

So at this meeting there was a sign on the door that said not to come in unless you were ready for your life to be changed. I was more than ready. I was desperate for God to do something in me, I just didn't see how God could. I am just too human and screwed up. But all I knew was that I was willing to do whatever it took to get God to give me some spiritual break through.

Well, the meeting went and then came to what we thought was a close, some people left, and... I felt the same. I didn't feel changed. I felt like I had a good time with God but.. it ended there. And I did not come for just a good time with God. I wasn't the only one feeling that way so we decided to pray some more. But I felt like I couldn't get any further. So everyone began praying for me. Danny asked me if I wanted whatever was keeping me back to go away, so of course, I said yes. He then asked if I believed it would happen tonight and I kept saying no because I knew it was me holding myself back because I wasn't accepting grace.

But everyone kept praying. Then... randomly, David said that the Lord told him to tell me that I needed to use the restroom and God would take my pain away. I was so confused but I went. I ran to the bathroom. As I was washing my hands, I couldn't take them out of the water. I started to sob. God told me, 'Your hands are clean. Go and sin no more and you are healed.'

Well, since then I have had none of the problems I was having. I couldn't eat without feeling terribly sick before. Now.. I eat and I feel fine! Milk doesn't affect my body in a negative way like it used to. Nothing does. My body is compeletly healed! Praise God!